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This shall be a personal entry
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Work is really taking a toil on me and i am no longer enjoying it as much as before. Not that i doesnt like my work but i seriously hate last minute work. it's a pain when someone sits on the work for so long and you arent able to porgress just because u need to wait for that one person to make a decision. And it doesnt help that the decision will usually comes super late and then he/she will make you rush like mad. I cannot understand when you have the whole year to plan a budget and allocate your resources but yet one will choose to only ultilise it only at the last hour. And throughout the whole year, they will keep lamenting that we do not have any budget.

Well i can understand when you wanted to save the money for bigger projects but at the very least, give us enough buffer time to work things out. Certain things just simply cannot be rushed out within 1 or 2 days. You need to give vendor some leeway and time as well right? I simply cannot understand. It's really pretty fustrating when everything seems so urgent yet you know all these urgencies can be avoided. Pretty much avoided if that one person can work faster and be more efficient.

But well, at the end of the day we still have to work. Things still have to go and we still have to bite the bullet and zooooom. That's life. How unfortunate right? That's why i seek solace in animals and love onees. I would say i handle work affairs and private life rather well. I dun usually get affected much at work, cos i know at the end of the day ITS JUST WORK. not a very significant part of me. its just my bread. under my hierarchy of growth, it has already reached another level. It's a level where i believe it will take people one lifetime to find and yet they might not be able to even find it. But well, at the end of the day as long as you are happy, nothing else matters right?

Actually i know it's a serious problem of mine cos i am really a person who hates last minute work and changes. Not only when it comes to work but even personal life. I love things to be planned out and i expect things to happen just like the way its being planned. I will get fustrated when changes take place along the way. And i always want to finish things way before the deadline and thats part of the reason why i rather do things myself then to get help because i felt that its faster and more efficient that way. Is this called perfectionist? I am lucky that my immediate superior is a wonder woman. she is super fast and accurate. That's how my whole team functions. Efficient! So i guess, that's how i learnt and get my skills from. However, over the years, i also realise this 'flaw' or 'strength' of mine. so i will always tell myself to cool down and lower my expectations and dun be so hard on myself or worst still on others and offend other people. But i think so far i am still quite logical, i didnt place this expectation on anyone else yet. Not yet except for my poor bf. Life's short and probably it's time for me to get use to last minutes request and work.


So chill, relax and enjoy life to its fullest. :That's always a limit to how much we can do.